UNWANTEDD~ ='(

2007-11-30T23:53:00.000+08:00

Sha la la la la

Sha la la la la

Verse 1:

You used to call me your angel

Said I was sent straight down from heaven

You'd hold me close in your arms

I loved the way you felt so strong

I never wanted you to leave

I wanted you to stay here holding me

Chorus:

I miss you

I miss your smile

And I still shed a tear

Every once in a while

And even though it's different now

You're still here somehow

My heart won't let you go

And I need you to know

I miss you

Sha la la la la

I miss you

Verse 2:

You used to call me your dreamer

And now I'm living out my dream

Oh how I wish you could see

Everything that's happening for me

I'm thinking back on the past

It's true that time is flying by too fast

Repeat Chorus

Bridge:

I know you're in a better place yeah

But I wish that I could see your face oh

I know you're where you need to be

Even though it's not here with me

Repeat Chorus 2x

A very very nice song with beautiful lyric.

2007-11-29T23:59:00.000+08:00

It is a damn cold place. I don't like shallow meetings. I don't like asses who wear masks. I don't like myself either.

But, I owe them somehow. I wish that I can belong but it's difficult. I had tried, seriously, but to no avail.

God shall plan for me then.

I don't like everytime after 6pm everyone will run off to their own programmes. Leaving me, who doesn't know where to go, alone. Who shall I follow ? I have lots of courage to make new friends but little patient.

I don't like judgements. I don't like those "I know what you are thinking" smiles. Do not tell me what I should think or how I should feel. Feelings are what the community give me and thoughts are the reactions to those feelings.

Recently life is aimless. I know what I should do but I don't follow them. I want to do it my own way but just suffers from it. Feels like sleeping but forcing myself to stay awake and continue my meaningless conversations of the MSN.

Have been looking for a meaning but found none. I wish to rid of everything and start anew.

JOB JOB ! I need a stable job, a happy and good payment job. Then I shall have some life, new friends and new jokes. Life is boring, very boring.

Xiao Dong is leaving. He is nice ! Bye, I will miss you, my good friend.

Thinking about chalet just makes me feel emotional. 4D-rians etched deeply in my heart already.

It's late, I'm tired. Good bye.

2007-11-29T02:04:00.000+08:00

There's prom, chalet and today's dinner that can be my contents for blogging tonight. Yet, I am not going to talk about all these because I am real tired. I wonder. Maybe I am just very tired.

I am sad.

2007-11-28T02:39:00.000+08:00

Prom, chalet and some Furama working passed. I meant to blog long, but nah, I am too fcuking tired. I need some rest, and life.

I seriously want to fcuk you up your nose. Asshole.

2007-11-20T15:33:00.000+08:00

I attended First Toa Payoa Secondary School's prom night. The previous sentence might be very misleading as it is not their first prom night but the school's name is First Toa Payoa Secondary School. Details will be posted at night I guess, if not it will be on some other day when I am free.

This is a warning to those who are working out there. Remember this : No one can be trusted in the outside world. Do not leave your belongings unattended, if see any... Ok this is crap. The focus is do not leave any shits out of your vision range. You may trust that no one will steal your things, but once stolen, you can never find it and will definitely regret it.

PLEASE DO NOT LEAVE YOUR BELONGINGS OUT OF YOUR RANGE !

2007-11-18T02:16:00.000+08:00

Finally I was able to define life with laws.

Jim's First Law of Life states that money is hard to earn and please study, under the same physical conditions and pressure.

When I have more life experiences I will have more laws.

2007-11-18T01:53:00.000+08:00

I never expect myself to be facing with such a R)#(#)%*)#FCUKING@$*(@*$(# supervisor, similar to Fel's case. Today's work just make me learn two important life lessons which I will sum it up at the end of my post. This is will be a long post but I hope that you people can just bear with it and read on. I thought happily that doing banquet will be difficult but I never never never thought that IT WILL KILL YOU. Ok, I must admit that I am weak hence two banquets can easily knock me down. However, due to God's grace, I managed to survive it. Seriously, this is not something which I am purposefully exagerrating. The coming incidents are facts, as true as I am a erhemz. Now I am having blisters plus some cuts but I brought home some cash. Here are the incidents :

I was walking down the kitchen route and one man suddenly says, " Your balls dropping arh ?" Then I didn't hear what he says and replied, "Huh ?" " YOURS BALLS DROPPING ARH ? WAlk SO SLOW !?!" came his screams. I was not very happy with his attitude and I thought he was just like us, working staffs, what's more was that I thought he was slacking because he was sitting down there. So I was not bothered about his instruction and continued to walk in a very slow manner, purposefully because I THOUGHT HE WAS JUST A BLOODY NOBODY. Well, it turned out that he indeed is my supervisor. The second time I walked the same route again, he said, " Boy, what's your name ?". I didn't reply and he boomed, " FCUKING BOY, WHAT'S YOUR NAME ? " Though infuriated, I still reply, in a not-very-nice tone, " Soon siang lah." That was his strings of replies. "You still want to work anot ? " "Gimme a better attitude hor I tell you. " I listened and I head back to my station. The aunties are relatively helpful, unlike those eighteens. -.-

Shortly after that I had a small incident with another person which led to further scoldings and "pick-on"s from the supervisor himself. He said something like, " You boy or girl ?" Whereas I was explaining why the small incident occur as a misunderstanding. You know, it is hard to explain logic to someone uneducated. So he kept screaming and yelling at me like as though I am his fcuking machine. He kept telling me, " You don't make me flare up (in chinese, ni bu yao nong wo fa huo)." Then he was like keep pick on me, I really chiong for the arrangement of tables and chairs. Even when I had cramps on my left leg, I must still continue to drag those chairs and arrange them nicely. I was obviously limping but who cared ? While we were doing our best into the job, he suddenly shouted, "CHEE BYE !!" So loud that the whole ballroom shakes(yeah, this is an exagerration, but true to a certain extent). Full of uneducated people. Oh well ~

Just before the second banquet we had a short meeting outside. He said this is to, " I dunno whether you think working under me is suay anot but I think you work under me is FCUKING suay." I seriously don't want to show my weaker side hence I stood straight and answered him loud, yes or no and that was it. The second banquet was miserable. I accidentally spill a glass of red wine over a man. He was angry, obviously. However, the rest at the same table was like appeasing him. Immediately, the supervisor came and he did not scold me or what. After that, he called me outside and lecture me, saying that I will have to pay for the washing cost and HAVE TO DELIVER THIS CLOTHE TO HIS DOORSTEP. Upon hearing that, I said to myself, " I am going to quit after today." So I gave my house phone number and name wrongly but it had no use since I wrote true particulars on the form that was given to us to fill when we report for work. I did not want to go to his house or what shit. I am the way I am. Yet, I had change my thoughts now. All because of Seow Hung, she said that she will accompany me to that guest's house when the hotel has washed his clothe. I was touched by this statement. She told me that don't just walk away. Alright, I will listen to her. I am like that. Easily encouraged by a friend. If you willing to walk with me this mile, I don't mind walking another more.

I feel that all these bad happenings are all God's will. God is showing me that Jim (me) is not suitable to do LABOUR work, definitely hell not suitable. I also don't understand why am I born weaker than other boys, starting from primary one. Z. God taught me two life lessons today, firstly, MONEY ($$$$$$$$$) IS HARD TO EARN and secondly STUDY HARD. Never mind if you click exit from my blog and forgetting all the above. Just remember this, most importantly, I want to share this to who I care and loved me, MONEY IS HARD TO EARN AND PLEASE STUDY HARD. These are the two life lessons which I mentioned it at the start of my post. Money is really hard to earn, not just having a %)#()%# supervisor but working itself is seriously wtfcukinghell. I stood from 10am to 11pm, having only just 1 hour of break. My legs were telling me, "Master, just quit and go on with your life." These banquets are definitely more tiring than the most tiring of working at Yoshinoya plus Pizza Hut. I really just want to give up but I am just afraid they won't give me my pay. =x I sat on the floor and I felt like heaven immediately. My legs are still sour now. I was thinking, just leave. Just LEAVE. I held on til the end. ^^ The things we have to carry was heavy, each having the mass of at least 10kg. I was not able to carry a carpet which indirectly led to a conflict between the supervisor and me. I say honestly, I am scare of him. So many bloody guests asked for drinks drinks drinks. Coke and whatever. Tables are so confusing and I was so tired that I walked hunching back. My legs are telling me, " PLEASE DON'T WALK ANOTHER STEP MORE." I wanted to sit down but people are watching lah. Who knows later they bao toh I kenna kpkb again. MONEY IS REALLY HARD TO EARN. Then I also realised something, people who work these kind of jobs are uneducated people whom you can't and don't want to speak a word more to them. WHY ? They are the ones who use violence to solve problems while I am those who like to play more of mind games. Obviously, I will lose if I shout back to them and fight them so I was an obedient boy. While working, I kept telling myself that this will be short term. When I grow up, I will never do this kind of job anymore where you see arseholes everywhere. So how ? How should I ensure myself that I will not land up in such an undesirable job ? The answer is obvious. Study. I guess you people know what I am talking about. I don't have to go into much details. I thank God even though it was a really suay day, but at least I went away learning two important lessons. I will go back next weekend, more hardships make a person stronger. Come on, mould me God !

2007-11-17T01:16:00.000+08:00

Suddenly, I feel so emotional that I have decided to come here to blog.

This is what I want to say, it does not matter whether to comfort myself or console myself.

I have a clear conscience and no guilty. Though upset but I am living the right way of life though struggling.

This is what I won, a token victory. This is something you are going to regret for not having it.

Though I am not enjoying life as some people are now, but I guess this is still a blessing from God. God had taught me what is right and what is wrong through the daily experiences which I encounter. It may seem that others' lifes are perfect in a sense, but I guess I have correct moral values which most do not have. I know what is it to be truly happy. I know what is it that can truly warm your heart and bring a smile out of nowhere. I will smile if I see a handphone right in front of me but I will smile with tears threatening to fall when I know that someone is willing to help me with all his or her might, to be there for me, truly and always. I desire the latter.

My adversities mould me to be someone who will not easily fall when faced with hardships, I know what is the person I do not want to become, I know what is the person whom I will truly give my best to. I may not have the money I need, but God gave me a brain. I may not have the character to survive, but God gave me these adversities. I mean it is alright for someone to show off how well of is her life. This shows how insecure she is, how much she does not know to be a right person. This only shows how much she cannot differentiate between rights and wrongs and how evil she is. Whatever it is, what I want to say is, after thinking through all these, I was not even abeit angry. I do not feel angry at all, it was not like in the past which I will first feel angry then slowly let it go. Now, I do not feel that anger in the first place. I only feel that she still have a lot more to learn.

I may cry, I may breakdown any moment anytime. Other people will not know how tiring, how pekchek, how gimxim, it is to live a life like mine. Sometimes, I just feel like I really do not want to work so hard, just want to give up and die. As always, due to my humjiness, I will rid of such thoughts and continue living my life. Just go on, ji xu ji xu. I thank God, that even though I do not want to suffer but still these sufferings make me see life from another perspective, what others would not normally see. I thank God for the plans he had for me, I will be a good person, I will learn and do it. Pray that others who are living in their self-centerd fantasy will never wake up, if they do, life is just too bad for them. I am worry that they might not be able to take it.

I am not lecturing, I am just emo-ing.

2007-11-17T00:30:00.000+08:00

hi people. im like back to those aiya anyhow type de typing liao. bcos the Os is over, i don unds myself why am i still blogging in my best english when the english exams are over. yeah yeah, i still have a good long jc life ahead, but arghhh, i still cant find a suitable job who cares about that jc life which is still 2months into the future. i've been reading a book call The Elegant Universe, which is so damn damn damn nice. it talks about the superstring theory which most(?) or some scientists believe will be the correct theory to explain all forces and matters of the universe. its beautiful. if you asked me which two questions will i be most interested to know the answer, my reply would be, "why did the universe began ?" and "why am i a gay ?". it's unlikely i can find an answer for either of the questions, hence i just have to try my luck reading more to see if i can formulate an answer to any of these questions. i guess im just attracted and interested in the details of these scientific knowledges, hahas, don't blame me for the tendency to share them ok ? because more knowledge is always good and knowledge never kills. i remember one very important quote which i learnt through the english enrichment class held by our school. the teacher for that enrichment class was an indian man whose name i cant remember =x, he once said, in a sacastic manner, "Knowledge will kill you, right ?" i just cant forget wad he said. yeah, more knowledge is never harmful. some of the bloody concepts in the book are very hard to unds, im gg to re-read it soon. i skipped quite alot of pages HAHA.

i wonder if such typing style will deter readers from my blog or not. but i wouldn't care more since i blog for only my own entertainment and limited leisure. I NEED A JOB. oh this will definitely be the aim and the motivation of life for the coming days. WORK WORK WORK WORK WORK WORK. i cant live without working man. i definitely will die of hunger or envious. well, i went to many many different shops to ask for recruitment, most rejected. hais... NVM ! im sure with determination, i will be able to get one soon. hais, i guess i shall keep all my troubles to my close friends and myself and nv will i reveal it in my blog again. anyway, i alwaes nv state clearly the problems. -.- ANYWAY. i said i gg to keep this a short post. so dere u go people(thanks for reading ^^) ; this is a SHORT post.

2007-11-14T21:43:00.000+08:00

The tagboard is back.

Any comments should be reflected there. New blog coming, I have already created it, anyone who wishes me to link he or she please notify me.

2007-11-13T01:39:00.001+08:00

I remember telling everyone that I am going to change my blog but when I am going to do that ? I absolutely has no idea.

Things are just way out of my hand, beyond my wildest dreams and come in astronomical magnitude of difficulties. What I can do is to pray from the bottom of my heart, listen sorrowly to all the pains and forcing them down my throat without any action.

I want to work. I want. Dreaming and thinking about it every day and seconds.

Daniel had gave me a book titled "Soul Matters" which I find it very useful recently. I read a few pages when I first received it then I slided it in my pile of books and never touch it since recently when the Os is over. One of the matters it handles is Forgiving. On page 23 of the book.

There are a number of reasons we struggle to truly forgive others-

Fairness: ... ...

Pride: ... ...

Deep hurts: Some people have really hurt us deeply - and really aren't looking for forgiveness. This makes forgiveness extremely difficult and painful. In some cases, forgiving others doesn't guarantee you will have a good relationship with that person - or should even be around them. But even if forgiveness doesn't change that person - it does change you for the better in your heart.

Promises made by God ; Make sure you have everything you need (Luke 12:5-6). I count on Him on that.

Infideity

Ha, can you stop lying ? Can you stop hidding something ? Can you stop bullshitting ? Can you stop shouting ? Can you stop fcuking ? Can you leave us alone ? CAN YOU SHUT THE FCUK UP ? SELFISH AND DISGUSTING. YOUR MOTHER FCUKER.

2007-11-12T01:20:00.000+08:00

I attended services for the past two weeks ! Aren't I a good boy ? I really want to rely on God, let God do the worrying and I will do my best. But seeing from the situation I am in now, I am still not doing my best. Not because I don't want the situation to deviate, but because it's hard. Hopefully, when I can draw more and more of God's strength, I will be able to do more. God is like someone who loves you, certainly he does. Anyone who loves you will give you whatever you want but will be depressed if you don't show back that you love him. I mean it is quite similar to any relationship on this planet. He won't feel serious about you if you are just treating him as a toy or an ATM. When I was shitting after I reached home today, I realised that actually Praise and Worship is quite fun. It does, to a certain extent, give me some release from the stress that I am facing from all aspects of life. I guess I will go for services more often, to seek more of Him, to become a better person. Just go and go, one day I will find love in Him and He will find it in me.

2007-11-12T01:14:00.000+08:00

Oh, new blog coming.

Oh fcuk.

2007-11-10T13:03:00.000+08:00

I am going to blog. I am very upset with the 3 British men, bullying the old trishaw man.

Wait, probably I won't blog afterall.

I wish that one fine day when the three men got back to their homes in England, they will find a broom sticking out from their Moms' vagina, or if their Moms are dead, a broom sticking out from the ground if that is the case.

Oh man, that will be so 'retribution'.

These CBs think its "insensitive" though they think that they were not abide to bullying.

That's utter bullshits, they must have missed all the moral lessons in their school, perhaps there were no such lessons to start with.

This just inspire me to be even more educated than them, but never going to be like a bastard like them.

I will be elite with all the right things in mind. I will.

Ok, this shall really be the second last post of 2007. Seriously, I doubt anyone is reading my blog. Good in a sense that I can safety blog whatever I want to.

2007-11-05T17:09:00.000+08:00

Actually, I have to thank all my friends. I am gratitude towards all their kindness.

Without them, I guess it is impossible for me to live through this year. I wanted let this post be my closing post for the year, as well as, for my blog but I guess I will not be able to find the time so I am here, blogging, perhaps the last blog post for 2007.

Yes, I am making a new blog soon and still in the "brainstorming" process of names of URLs.

pythagoras&relativity.blog... ? Or amphoteric&light.blog... ?

Anyone interested can just give me your suggestions through the MSN.

I can still remember vividly that during the HOGC's countdown for 2007, I was happily counting down to the new year. And now, I am finishing my great stepping stone to a better life, the infamous GCE 'O' Levels. Maybe after this, life will be better, or even worst. I cannot expect anything good, but just wish that nothing bad will happen as I bravely continue walking through my last phrase of the year 2007.

I shall take back my words, I feel that I have many things to say. I will leave it till 31th December, till then I will post a summary for the year, which I had been doing so for the past two consecutive years. Til then, we shall meet again.

Meanwhile, I would like to express my gratitude to the following people.

Firstly, Larrison Lim. For he had thought of me when he was happily dining with Guo Mun and asked Guo Mun to offer me a job. I greatly appreciate his thoughts and understanding of my situation. Definitely, I would also like to thank Guo Mun, for coming up to me and informing me about the job he had on hand. I appreciate his kindness and am sorry for all the troubles he had went through because of my difficulties.

Secondly, I would like to thank NYY for he had kindly offered me a job which I will take up immediately after the 'O's ends on the 12th of November. I would like to thank him for letting him to stay in his house for dinner, and all the things which he had treated me with. He had gave me many treats and for that, I am gratitude towards him.

Certainly, my good friends are definitely not being left out of the list. First, on the list is definitely my best friend. She had been supporting me for the whole year. If I were to list out all the countless things that she had done as a friend, I am sure this list will never end. She understands my situation and try to help out whenever possible. She is always there to hear my troubles and does not care about my shortcomings. ... My whole blog is just too humble to write out everything. But she knows and I know. Regardless of what people might say after reading this post, whether saying I 'por' her or what, it does not matter. I do not care for things that ignorant people say because they do not know anything and are desperate to know more. Thank you thank you. Next, is PT. She had been very understanding towards my situation and had been helping me here and there. I had never regret to befriend PT, never. There is nothing to be regret of. She has done a lot for me and I appreciate all these. I really hope that we will not go seperate ways after the 'O's, but no matter what, we will be friends and that is it. Treating me here and there, laughing out with me.

Lastly, there are also friends who I treasure a lot. Like Elysia and Wei Shen. Wei Shen had lent me $12 and Elysia $10 for different purposes. They had never been like loan shark, meaning to say they had never pester me for the money. They always say, "Man man lai, later then return me." What I could say to comfort myself and them is to promise them that I will return the money as soon as possible. Until today, they have not seen an edge of the money they are going to receive.

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Finally, I would like to address an issue.

I seriously don't see what's the reason for you people to be so insensitive towards my feelings. I don't feel a part of the so-called community and all you people know to do is to push the blame on me and continue to leave me outside.

The rest are reserved for next post.

2007-10-30T15:49:00.000+08:00

The BIG 'O' is ending real soon.

Blah, English was screwed upside down. And I'm not in any good mood to study for tomorrow's Higher Chinese paper. Then it's Physic on friday, SS on next monday and about 1 week later I WILL BE FREE !

Rather sad now, regretted for not well-prepared for the exams. What else can I do now ? I will still go on, having done so many big and small examinations before, a 'O's won't knock me and anyone else down.

Still, I am depress over the English paper. Damn it ! Can't I just write about a guy who didn't live up to his bad reputation ? ROAR ! All because of the word "up". WHY AM I SO STUPID TO INTERPRET THE MEANING OF THE QUESTION WRONGLY ? It's over. It's over. That's how I console myself then. Geography was another pitfall. Well, people from the forum were saying the Geography paper was difficult, that eased my heart ('eased' or 'ease').

Hopefully SS will come out Venice or SID, preferbably Venice. Oh ya, Chemistry was not that good either. Tons of careless mistakes, I am afraid my 'sure get' A1 will fly away. I don't know why, I guess I'm not a very 'good' person. When I see people commenting, in the forum, that the Chemistry paper is so easy that "you should go and knock your head if you don't get A1 !", I will feel threaten and worry. Damn ! IF, supposedly if, I don't get that A1, Mr Tien please don't give me that kind of face. Ha, you people don't snatch the A1 seats. Alright, I shall pray but I feel guilty about praying now. Now my heart is bumping faster and faster, I don't know why.

WHY WHY WHY ? Why the UCLES don't want to set novel questions ?! Seriously, I am not "haoliang-ing", I will get my A1 if Cambridge sets novel questions. To me it's an advantage, but unfortunately, things were not going my way. The questions were simple but tricky, I was tricked and careless mistakes were many. Whatever whatever. Leave everything to God, if A1 isn't meant for me, then it won't be mine. But if I get very upset over it, don't blame me, I am a human.

I don't understand why my whole post is revolving around studies but I guess this is okay. I just don't want to disappoint my parent, the stress is tremedrous.

2007-09-07T02:19:00.000+08:00

Helpless. Can you imagine her feelings ?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=roBXOYyB3gI

2007-09-07T01:48:00.000+08:00

Bleach 139 left me so impacted that I must blog about this scene in the anime.

Here's the scene in words.

Inoue : "Wait ! You want to talk to me, right ?

*pats* One of the Shinigamis' arm was gone.

Ulquiorra: "That's correct, woman. I want to talk to you."

Inoue: "Souten Kishun !"

*Inoue heals the guy*

Inoue, to the other Shinigami guard (there were two of them in the scene) : "Run ! Please Run !"

The guard : "B-But..."

Inoue, to the guard again : "I'll be fine, so run ! Please !"

*pats* The guard's arm was gone.

Inoue : "Ayame !"

Ulquiorra : "You can still heal them, despite their injuries being so grave ?"

(Best part is here.)

Ulquiorra : "Impressive."

"Come with me, woman."

"Silence."

" 'Yes' will be the next word you speak."

"Saying anything else will result in a swift death."

"Not for you,"

"but for your friends."

"Don't ask questions."

"Don't say a word."

"You have no rights and no options."

"In your hands you hold the rope keeping the guillotine safely suspended above the necks of your friends."

"I hope you understand, woman."

"We are not negotiating."

"I'm giving you an order."

"Aizen-sama desires your power and has ordered me to bring you back unharmed."

"I will say it one more time."

"Come with me, woman."

-To be continued...

...

2007-09-01T14:21:00.000+08:00

Ha, what is life ? I guess we, as humans, at times must re-define(not sure if there's a hyphen but anyway.) the word, 'Life'.

Reality. I am not sure how am I going to survive in this reality. Too real or too fake ? It seems its too fake and hence its REALITY. See the irony ? Life is like a stage, and we're just merely actors. Life is too good to be TRUE. Hence, it's fake. Everyone's a faker, everyone acts. For what ? We all seek a life we desire, but in the end we destroy the life we truly need. Another irony, I guess.

Temptation rules over our five senses, at times we know its wrong and immoral, but who cares when we get these enjoyments and satifactions after all that ? It is back to reality.

The RAW nature of humans, in you and me. The raw nature of humans, and it sucks to a large extent.

What we spoke is not what we feel, that's lying. Lying is a sin but it is never wrong. Who don't lie ? Ok fine. Everyone's a liar and this society is also a lie, probably a white one. Do YOU ever really feel that way when you speak about your feelings ? Maybe you're just pretending, and in your heart you're thinking about the otherwise.

So this world is a game as well. How much you can guess your enemy's moves is how much you have won. How much you can lie without anyone's knowledge is how much you have won too. How quiet you are in giving answers is how high your position will be in the society.

As you have read this, you might think I am some lunatic who has the completely wrong mindset about this world and life. But think again, I once was someone who was optimistic about life. Hopeful and trying. Yet, reality is reality. My old mindset has not changed. I believe in the best. I believe life is great, the society is kind and wondeful and humans are perfect. But reality is still reality. I'm NOT some lunatic or emo kia who blogs this just to portray an emo or insane image of myself. I just feel reality is reality, do you understand ? Obviously, you don't.

2007-08-26T21:18:00.000+08:00

Well, this is my first attempt of writing a report as a preparation for tomorrow's prelim English examination.

As requested, I am submiting an account of the incident which I witnessed on 26 August 2007 at about 7.30 in the evening. I was on my way towards my house, when I walked past the side gate of Lion Secondary School. There were two late teenagers gesticulating wildly at a lower secondary school boy with a pint-sized frame. I quickly identified one of them as a student from Tiger Secondary School, judging from the uniform he was wearing. He had tinted hair and was rammaging through a schoolbag which I believed to be the victim's belonging. The other teenager, had his hand pressing hard on the victim's shoulder. There was a tattoo on his arm which read "Kill"

Almost immediately, the one with the tattoo flinged the schoolbag back to the victim and rained blows on him. The victim tried to retaliate by lurching forward with a fist, but was pushed back hardly. Infuriated, the two bullies took off the victim's topwear and ran towards the road junction. Just as they were approaching the intersection of Joo Chiat Road and Malachi Road, a police car came to a halt right in front of them. They ran in different directions but eventually were caught by the policemen. The one with tinted hair brandished out a penknife which almost landed on one of the policemen's face. He was quickly subdued by the passerbys who bundled him from his back.

I quickly ran up to the victim and attended to him. He had a bloody deep gush on his forehead and subtained some minor injuries near his chest. I called the ambulance, which arrived fifteen minutes later, with my cellphone. After which, I was summoned to the police station to have my statement recorded.

2007-08-26T02:06:00.000+08:00

I would like to thank my form teacher for this kindness.

Mr Rahim. It is unlikely that I will forget about him as I grow older, going to a JC, NS?, University and to the workforce, as everything he did for 4D as a class and for me, as an individual made us owe him a great deal. I am very grateful towards his kind gesture of paying the 'O' levels fee for me, lest I might be ripped off the chance to take the 'O' levels. He helped me a lot and he had never rejected anyone's request. What touched me was the video clips he showed us and using that, motivated us. We might have forgotten the true motive of studying well, surely not for ourselves. I reckoned. That working hard for our future is a selfish act, it is a noble attempt to work hard and strive for others. Pertaining to that, strives for our parents. They had been scarificing since we were borned. For whoever we are, whatever things we did and any circumstances, our parents never give up on us. Whatever it is, whatever the struggles for us might be, I will work hard to repay my parent. Like what the powerpoint slides mentioned, 'O' level is definitely not a test of intelligence, but a test to attest our love for our parents. Work hard friends ! Language-wise, pardon me for my incompetency to write this post without errant words or grammar. Well, I really want to write this with great language and proficiency. I really want to express myself with clarity pertaining to what I feel about Mr Rahim. Ah, in short, I LOVE HIM.

2007-08-19T16:48:00.000+08:00

I FUCKING DON'T KNOW ANYTHING YOU PEOPLE SAID BEHIND MY BACK. ZERO FUCKING NOTHING THAT I KNOW. CONTINUE FUCKING LOR. I HAVE SEEN YOUR TRUE COLOURS BUT SEEING IT AGAIN REALLY IRKS ME. IT IRKS ME YOU BASTARD. YOU SUCK. NOT EVEN A FUCKING PEA. YOU THINK YOU ARE GOING TO BE SUCCESSFUL, YOU THINK YOU ARE AT THE BRIGHT SIDE. I SHALL PROVE YOU WRONG CCB.

2007-08-19T02:12:00.000+08:00

Read on. Well, I have invented two quotes, they are jolly meant to cheer me up. So, here you go.

"Life is never fair, but we must be fair to ourselves."

"If life never gives us the chance to be good and do well, then we shouldn't rip the chance of doing well and be good by ourselves."

My English isn't that good anyway, maybe someone will like to modify the quotes for me. I don't mind as long as the meaning is intact. Well, do achieve that, make sure you really understand the quotes, as well as, me.

I guess we shouldn't look at life from such a negative perspective, just like how we wish others will not do the same upon us. One law of life applies to all.

I felt deeply regretful for playing MapleStory. I played it for a straight 10 hours and hence I am regretting it. Ha, I merely did some GPQ and boss-ing and it took up my day. ROAR. Come faster la Os, I hate you ! I wish you just come and let me dominate you ! ROAR. And in the end of all, I shall work like a workaholic and play like a 'playaholic'. COME ON ! I AM NOT AFRAID OF Os OR ANYONE ELSE. CCB. LMAO.

2007-08-11T22:14:00.001+08:00

Thanks Chew Ting for inviting me to do some math practice in her blog.

Here are my answers, and I hope all are right.

? - 124 degrees.
CED - 10 degrees.
CDE - 105 degrees.
ECD - 65 degrees.
ACB - 55 degrees.
ABF - 20 degrees.

2007-08-11T14:57:00.000+08:00

Fuck. I mean enough is enough. Don't want to lend, DON'T. Please. I have enough problems at home and yet I have to come to NCHS and suffers all these injustice ? Fuck. I can't be bothered anymore, any fuck you want to do, go ahead and plug in your lj. Its NONE of my business, asshole.

And since now I am not in the fucking good mood, I just want to scold one retard who stole my multimedia memory card. This cb, I don't know when he stole it but I am sure that it was he. None of those who were around had the motive to do it, and they were still my friends even til now. I shall not dwell on this, lets proceed to something recent. Fucking, I don't need YOU to comment on the belt that I have ok ? It's fucking none of your business whether my belt is nice or not, YOUR OPINION YOU KEEP IT TO YOURSELF. You think it's not nice, then buy one that is nice for me since you are like SOOOOOOOOO concerned with what belt I wore. By the way, that belt cost $30 which is by no means cheap to me, if you think its so cheapstake or what. Please, if you are fucking rich (which I doubt so), then fuck with all the money you have. Get yourself buried and suffocated in the heaps on notes please. I really don't mind sparing hell notes to make sure that you are completely buried. I don't mind if you says my belt isn't nice if you are my friend, you are really giving your opinion. BUT you just irritated me. Anyway, if its the normal nice CSS, he won't blog about this. Oh, one thing I don't really understand is, why do NCHS welcome you back to NCHS and be one of the judges for the recent event ? At last the MC even thank for his PROFESSIONAL judgement. Oh my goodness ! Well well, enjoy another year of your great JC life !

2007-08-07T22:55:00.000+08:00

The best is yet to be. 76 days, 8 subjects, 2 hands and 1 'O' level. Despite all odds, we can do it !

For all, work hard.

2007-07-26T21:20:00.000+08:00

The entire of this post is a contribution to the recent GST hike, an excuse for despicable fuckers to rape off our dollar signs. Following is an example. Mike, an affluent man, wants to buy a MP3 player. Two months ago, he went to a shop which sells a MP3 player at the selling price of $105 (inclusive of the OLD GST), which lead us to know that the cost price of that MP3 player is $100 (exclusive of the 5% GST). Today, he visits the same shop again, to his surprise, the cost of that same MP3 player is now $112.35. The tag of it says "inclusive of 7% GST" Oh fuck. Use your brain to find out why am I so flare with those despicable sellers who even dare raise an 80 cents pea-sized cup of coffee to $1. TELL ME HOW THE FUCK AN INCREMENT OF 2% LEAD TO SUCH JACK UP PRICES ? The minds of these rapers.

Oh, sense of belonging to the country ? Tell me how in this country can the citizens have such sense. Yes, they can, nonsense is what all they have. Ok, as well as an irrational mind. Social studies is definitely the most hated subject in my opinion. I ABHOR SOCIAL STUDIES BECAUSE THE WHOLE BOOK IS A LIE, A NAKED LIE. On page 144 of our "biblical" social studies textbook 4, it says,

" CDCs are made up of residents of the local community and they look after the needs of the people living in that area. Singaporeans are encouraged to serve in CDCs offer services such as financial aid to the poor, counselling, job-matching services, before-and-after school care, and health and fitness programmes for the senior citizens. Through CDCs, more people are encouraged to participate actively in community service and help strengthen community bonding."

A beautiful example of a lie. Based on one of my life experiences, I shall explain why this is a lie. At the start of this year, towards the end of Feburary (I can't remember when was it), my family was facing a crisis that our electricity supply might be disconnect due to an outstanding bill. My parent tried ways to resolve it yet they could not manage it, at ties end, they decided to seek help from the CDCs.
... [To be continued.]

2007-07-23T22:49:00.000+08:00

I guess majority would agree that girls should have an appropriate conduct. Somesort of general guidelines for humans (subjectively). I believe for guys, that applies as well. Yeah, guys should not anyhow touch a girl's boobs etc. So girls should behave herself in the public, or particularly, in school. When so many people fixed their eyes on you and critisising you and your actions, you should really reflect on yourself. Yes, the majority might be wrong but that is seldom the case. You should know since you have - outside, you should really behave properly in school. I believe you will feel the same as your - if your - is doing the same things as you. Oh ya ya pa pa ya, you might think oh la la everyone is talking about nonsensical things again ~ You might think other people have no absolute right to dictate your life, yes I can't deny this fact but it is crucial for you to think that you are on no grounds to fend for yourself. At least I am a homosexual I can jolly well write an essay to fend for myself with evidences and examples to say why I should not bend down to society's pressure or whatever pressure. What about you ?

Lastly, and seriously, you and that M should really go think about life. Not that I know life exactly or can define it perfectly, but I guess people who have thought of this question might be abeit better in character, well, this is subjective as well. Rather than fucking around with despos, why not just sit down and do something constructive ? Note that 'constructive' can be controversial as well.

2007-07-20T19:53:00.000+08:00

It is rather disheartening to see how uncreative this society can be. Well, today as I reach home, my mother was raging with anger. She was disgusted by how those credit company in Singapore perform their duties. No point going too in-depth describing those imbecile minds of those idiots.

It will be a great benefit for the whole class if you or BOTH of you can extend your help to the others. Despite this kind reminder, your actions will still coincide with your genetically programmed mentality.

2007-07-15T14:47:00.000+08:00

Homosexuality is perfection with loopholes.

2007-07-12T23:03:00.000+08:00

Maybe what they think is totally right. Absolutely. I have embarked on a journey, and I have to carry on. What hurts, is the process of not producing any noticeable results.

2007-07-10T18:19:00.000+08:00

Hi fellow readers, CSS was pronounced dead on 10th July 2007. Reason of death : Too sad.

Abnormal freak, nobody understands. YES, NOBODY understands.

2007-07-07T23:57:00.000+08:00

Had fun today. IT WAS FUN ! HAHA, went SP with Joa, hui, laohan, prissss, weiSHEN and the 'Legends'. Quite fun la SP, we had a game of pool ! LMAO. Then we proceeded to Bugis after that, we shopped around. Hui & laohan brought their bags. All of us brought something, must be impressed that I ACTUALLY brought something right ? Ha, I brought a watch ! It is white in colour WOOHOO ! LMAO. It had been like 7 months since I last brought something pertaining to retail therapy. Oh, I suddenly remember I was actually killing ants at the void deck of Ying Han's house. Was freaking bored thus I started killing ants by squashing them using a newspaper. Tons of them were dead then I abandoned my 'weapon'. Those foragers are really like those describe in the comprehension passage, they never knock onto each other though they were almost blind. Ha, I sinned by killing those ants intentionally. Sorry. We dined at the hawker centre near Guang Yin Temple (ohh~). I had fried carrot cake and it was relatively nice. I actually asked for extra 50 cents carrot cakes but it ended up like no difference with Han's $2 plate. The rest had their own delicacies. Well. HA ! I thank all my friends for such wonderful and fabulous day. I thank God and Jesus Christ for such grant.

Answer the call, 070707. It's 24hrs of meanings.

2007-07-05T21:45:00.001+08:00

You two. I just feel the urge to blog about this, due to the momentary anger etc. I guess both of you never try to understand the whole situation, or at least my feelings. Seriously, I have no interest in figuring out what you are feeling if you are not getting on my nerves. You do not have to abide in my laws, yet you should really just be abeit more understanding, yeah ? Ah ya ya, pa pa ya la.

2007-07-02T17:03:00.000+08:00

I hereby declare that the best show of 2007, in my humble opinion, is Liar Game ! I recommend all avid readers of my blog to watch this show immediately, now, at this point of time and be amazed. Links will be provided later. What this show really captivates me is not the cast or the plot anymore, it is the moral behind all the scamming and so on. The MORAL of the story, is a message that the director, as well as, me wants to convey to the majority. Well, I am doing a reflection here. LMAO, please do not navigate away from this site once you read this line, it is my reflection so if you started reading, respect me and read on. The show portraits a environment similar to the society and what was emphasized was that if everyone in that game was to work together and none had the selfish thought of winning, they can all win the game together and break free from it. However, humans are always not that perfect, people want to win and gain something out of all these, thus they started cheating and lying. Then, the story went on to say how everything turned out well for them, and the message was put across clearly, without any doubts.

There is a way for everyone in this world to be happy. There is, there must be. In my opinion, the message that was put across was that we should be honest and forgiving. Wow, some of you might say, "Wasn't this repeated in our textbooks every now and then ? So what's so special about it ?" If you are having such thoughts, shame on you. If you are thinking being honest and forgiving is nothing big deal, shame on you. I will feel pity for anyone who belongs to that cateory. Akiyama, the main character in that show, was able to put down all his hatred he had for someone who killed his mother indirectly and forgave him. How many of you would be able to do that ? That is really a credit for him ! Kanzaki Nao, the main character in that show too, was honest in such horrible (force to show your "true" face) game until the end. Towards the end of the last episode was really the part where it can make you tear. There was also a daughter's wish to let his father realise that his thinking all the while was wrong. So much things to get your head thinking, whether or not all this while what you had been doing is right.

In the end, I was able to live life happier now. Especially, after I came back home from church last night. I am able to forgive other people. Really, I can. Since Jesus Christ can forgive me and did so much for me when no one else, not even deities have the power to do that. Jesus Christ did all that others won't. Hence, on NO grounds, will I not be able to forgive anyone. =) HAHAHA ! No point hating them anymore. Hating someone does not make any parties happier. Both the forgiver and the forgiven are the most happiest people in this world. Forgive someone does not mean fake towards someone. When you truly forgive, smiles and politeness come naturally. YEAH ! So happy that I am able to be thinking that way.

The generation of curse was broken ! I fall yesterday. The word "fall" is use in the right tense. Guess why ? Because, the falling state did not end yesterday, it continues today, tomorrow and forevermore. "I am really very angry, very angry with him la" Ha, what for ? Why do those little things, why our brains must work out those minute little calculations ? We should not do that, and from today onwards, I will not do that ! Good bye Satan, you have lost in the conquest to drag one more person down to hell, and your defeat does not end here. It shall continues !

2007-06-30T13:07:00.000+08:00

My love.